Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Valiant's Birth Story

Valiant was born March 2014. His birth story is very different from his brother, Nehemiah's. He was born on a Saturday morning. All night Thursday I was awake with contractions that didn't stop until 5am and they were pretty consistent most of that night. Isaiah was working on 3rd shift at the time so I was texting him during the night and I was pretty certain that baby was on the way, but we were waiting it out. Around 5am the contractions stopped, and I fell asleep for a few hours before I had to get up to care for Nehemiah and get ready for a doctor check-up that was required for our insurance. We got up and went to the doctor assuming that all of those contractions were just false alarms. It was at the Family Doctor that I realized they really weren't. At the time when I was called back as I went to stand up, I felt this weird feeling like I had wet myself but I wasn't soaked or anything but my backside was definitely wet. The nurses saw that I was taking a bit to get to the them and asked if I was okay. I said "Yeah, I think my water just broke though, but I don't feel any contractions so let's keep going."




When we got out of the doctor's office, Isaiah called Dr. Abbott and I called my friend Angie who was going to be with me for my first At-Home birth. She came probably about an hour later. Dr. Abbott pretty much said to wait it out for a few hours and call him back if contractions haven't begun yet. I was super uncomfortable that day and really tired from no sleep but I couldn't take a nap either. Angie showed up and she played with Nehemiah while Isaiah and I went for a walk at the cemetery like we did with Nehemiah to kind of help the contractions along. I think we waited about 8 or 10 hours and then called Dr. Abbott again and by this time we realized that we weren't going to be able to do the At-Home birth like we had wanted because Valiant needed to be out in 24 hours time. So we thanked Angie for her help and sent her home and we dropped Nehemiah off at Gramma's to spend the night and then headed to the hospital which was 40 mins away.




Contraction wise, the drive was fine but emotionally and mentally I wasn't doing well. I was soooo scared about another hospital birth because of my horrible experience at Harrisburg Hospital. I didn't want a repeat at all. I prayed and cried most of the way down.

We got to the Hospital in Lititz, PA, filled out some papers and was put in to a room very quickly and it was a super comfy, quiet room that was sooo nice and cozy. It was like a hotel visit in some senses because the bathroom was nice and Isaiah had a nice chair-bed to sleep on and my bed was very nice with a lot of adjustments and things went sooo much smoother with Dr. Abbott overseeing everything and being the boss and making sure I was comfortable and left alone and left to walk around if I wanted to. It was so much better. The labor was slow. He gave me little bits of Pitocin just to "help" me a long but I did most of the work myself. Labor was several hours. I am trying to remember how long. I labored with Valiant about 10 hours. He was born at 6:20am Saturday Morning. We were treated to really nice meals and a very decked out dinner. We left the hospital that evening and were home as a family around 8pm. It was a much better birth experience than with Nehemiah and one I wouldn't have any problem with doing again. Having the right doctor really makes the difference.




Here is a Facebook post that I posted around the time of Valiant's birth.

"Happy to be home sitting in my own comfy couch. I am so thankful to God for watching over me in the hospital and that the experience was so much better than my first. I am so thankful for my Christian Doctor who was there the whole time and checked on me and even prayed with us. The nurse that the Lord gave me through the process was such a blessing as well and we had a good amount of laughs together. She was super supportive and helped me more than she will ever know. I very much enjoyed my day stay in the hospital, but was glad that we could leave whenever we wanted and that my doctor was in charge. The food was super yummie too and they even gave us a celebration supper right before we left last night at 7:30.
The 40 minute drive wasn't too fun and I was praying for safety the whole time. We were the third person in a row to pull over due to hitting a tire that was in the middle of the road. That gave me a bit of a scare, but Lord willing, our car is okay; we couldn't see very well in the dark.
The night was beautiful last night. The moon was shining full and bright and the sky was breathtaking.

So yeah, thanks for all of your prayers, God was with us the entire time and really blessed. We are very much enjoying our little Valiant and Nehemiah gave me a big smile when I showed him his present that we brought home for him. <3 "





Monday, July 13, 2015

Seeing God Through A Bridal Shower

I was so excited to be able to throw a shower for Vivi! It was so much fun and it turned out soooo great. It wasn't perfect as nothing in this sin-filled world is, but it went really well and I am so thankful to God for the energy to keep on going so that I could accomplish all that I was trying to do. I am so very grateful that I didn't get sick and that nothing kept me from being able to host it.

Near the end of all the planning and the day before the shower, I was getting really fearful that I would miss it; I had recently missed something so special that I really wanted to be apart of, but events that I will never understand kept me from it, and parts of me thought that God was punishing me or that He was mad at me for some reason and so I began to search myself and ask why He would allow such a thing to happen if I was walking close to Him like I should be and doing all of the right things and all of these worrisome thoughts just began to really attack my mind and make me feel terribly sick and anxious. I kept giving the thoughts to Him but they would still come and I needed assurance from Him that He wasn't angry with me and I still would like to know His reasoning for taking that special thing away from me, but I may never know the "why's". I was just begging Him to allow me to do the shower and not to take that from me. If you know me well or know much of my stories you have an idea of how much has been taken from me in the past that I had no control of at all, thus why these fears came and this is just something I have to overcome.

But I am so thankful to God for giving me the gift of hosting this shower, because He didn't have to and I don't deserve blessings, nor do I deserve to always get what I want. I am so very thankful that He saw fit to give me this, because it meant so much to me and after the shower, I just cried to Him, half in exhaustion and half in worship; I just wanted Him to know just how thankful I was for strength and for His working things out so smoothly, because a lot of bad things could have happened, but they didn't and He was present the whole time helping everything to run smoothly just as I had prayed He would be the morning before the shower began. I don't do well at all in front of crowds of people staring at me and He knows that. He knows I could have lost it or cried as I am prone to do in a stressful situation, but He put a watch on my body, emotions and actions to keep me doing the right thing the entire time and I am so thankful because it's not easy to make people happy and I worked so hard to do so on that day.

And another answer to prayer that is worth praising God for is that this will be my very first time being in someone's wedding party and I am super excited about how much I have been able to be a blessing to my friend, Vivi. It's really an answer to prayer to finally be good enough, special enough, worthy enough or friend enough to actually be in someone's wedding, because I have been praying to be able to be in a wedding for as long as I can remember and for some unknown reasons I was never asked until this year. And I am just so thankful to finally have that honor.

I try so hard to be a good friend, but obviously I have messed up a lot because I was never seen as good enough, and I just hope that Vivi understands just how much it means to me to be in her wedding. I love weddings and have always wanted to be apart of as many as I could be, but was never really allowed to be by those I thought I might actually have a chance with. But I just try to do whatever I can to help the people I care about, but not everyone I care about deeply cares the same for me and that's just how life is sometimes but that doesn't mean I stop caring or hate those who haven't been friendly to me; I am to keep on being friendly because it's not about me. It's about bringing God glory and honoring Him and it honors Him when I sacrifice for others and love them when they aren't lovely. He alone gives me the power to love people I have a hard time loving and to forgive people who have hurt me so deeply. He alone is worthy to be praised. He is the only one who can change me completely and I know He is changing me. I can't always see it, but there are times that I can.


Anyway, I know this got long but people don't have to read it and I've been told that I and this blog could never be a blessing to anyone or bring God glory, but I must believe that God has a purpose for me and my life, and that He can cause me to do the right things and bring Him glory. I must believe that He will use me to be an encouragement to someone out there; even if it's just one person. I don't care about numbers. If I can bless just one, then I have won. I'm not going to make everyone happy, and thankfully that is not my job. Not everyone is going to love me and some are going to hate me until I die, but I can't control that; I can only look to God and let him take care of my enemies and give me wisdom as to how to deal with those who seek to hurt me and discourage me. Like David, I must follow God and love my enemies, but that doesn't mean letting them continue to hurt me. He fled from those who tried to kill him. That is what I am doing now. I don't have to keep myself open to keep getting knives thrown at me. I can run and hide knowing that I am not being a coward, but acting in wisdom that only comes from God, who I know I have been serving and following and loving, not perfectly, but I have been and He has blessed me and He does love me unconditionally and that's really all that matters, if I have His favor than who else do I really need? Lord, you are all I need. Remind me of this daily. You're all I need! 

Friday, May 22, 2015

It's All About Christ!

It's All About Christ!

I bow before you, Lord, and You alone!
Ashamed of my rebellion,
And ashamed of my sin.
Lord, don't let this sin reign within.
For I bow before You and You alone!

There is none like You, Oh my Saviour!
You are full of mercy, grace, and love.
You sent Your Only Begotten Son from above.
You are so gentle, and compassionate as a dove.
For there is no one like You, Oh my Great Saviour!

You are all I need, Dearest Lord.
Nothing else can satisfy!
Everything else please help me to deny!
On You and You alone may I only rely!
For You are all I need, most Dearest and Most Wonderful Lord!

I thank You my Amazing Lord!
Thanks for everything that You do!
All I desire to do is to worship You!
Thanks for Your love, joy, peace, and longsuffering too!
For all this I thank You, Amazing and Most Gracious Lord!

I love and thank You for Your Holy Word!
It contains great verses, such as James 4:4, to help one when the spirit and flesh are at war.
It is more than just a book that gets to a problems core,
And that shows one the ultimate cure.
For I love and thank You for Your Most Holy and True Word!

Copyrighted 2008 By: Elizabeth Anne Shull

The Christian Life

The Christian Life 

The Christian life can be quite hard,
Because the lustful things just cannot be barred.

You travel not knowing where to go or what to do,
And often times you need a break to take out the rocks in your shoe.

Sometimes you get discouraged and want to quit;
Sometimes things just don't seem to fit.

You make wrong choices and get into a mess,
And you become weighed down with much distress.



Though hard, you can be glad,
That Jesus is there to help you when you are sad.

He'll never leave you for He's always near,
That's why there is no need to fear.

He may seem so far away,
But in your heart He will always stay.

You can call on Him whenever you need,
And on His Word, you can always feed.

So, when you are deep, deep down in the dumps,
Remember that Jesus is able to take away life's lumps.

On Him you can always depend,
Because His grace and faithfulness, they have no end.

Copyrighted 2007 By: Elizabeth Anne Shull

Truths of Life

Truths of Life
Sometimes life seems so confusing!
Things happen that I only wish I could understand!
I know God sends trials to help us, but often times I don’t know how they really help me!
I find myself asking the well known “Why this, Why that” questions more and more!

Why does my life seem to be falling apart!
Why can’t I obey my Savior and do as He says!
Why do I always want to run away from problems but never can!
Why do my emotions always get the best of me!
Why am I so selfish and full of misery!

Nothing seems to fit, I feel like I can’t go on anymore!
I get weighed down with discouragement and just want to quit!
I think and do things that I regret!
Oh, please someone tell me what is going on, I seem to shout inside!

Yes, all of the above thoughts seem to flood my mind, but that is only because my eyes are not where they should be.


When I look at God’s perspective of the truth of life and how He views my life, all those uncertain questions and worries turn around to something quite different and much more encouraging.

Life may be confusing, but I can trust in God!
God understands everything that goes on in my life and gives me the grace to carry on!
God sends me trials to build me up and make me strong!
When I have so many “why’s” God always answers them in His time.
When nothing seems to fit, God gives me the courage and strength to follow on!
When I get weighed down and discouraged, God always sends something or someone to brighten my day!
When I think and do things that I shouldn’t, My Savior always forgives me and so willing forgets my sins!

Yes, my God can turn my night to day!! He’s my great Encourager and Leader into the right and most perfect way!!


Copyrighted 2009 By: Elizabeth Anne Shull

My Great God

My Great God

Lord, here I am a sacrifice
Trying to do things that are nice;

Trying to serve you
In everything I do.

My greatest desire is to be
A girl with a heart for Thee!

I want You to be pleased with my life
And someday, I hope to be a good wife.

I’m looking into the future and it’s quite a fog;
I’m frightened what lies ahead and scared of what may be divulged

Lord what am I to do?
Well, I suppose I should just trust in You.

Things may seem hard and rough,
But my God is able to make me tough!

He gives us a purpose to live;
And His grace He is more than willing to give!

He can turn our weary days glad
And make us happy when we’re sad!

My God gives me strength each and every day,
And directs me into His perfect way.

Why He cares for me so much I cannot tell,
I just can’t understand why he doesn’t just let me perish in Hell.

But though I cannot understand it,
I am quite thankful he doesn’t let me perish in that horrible pit.

My God truly is an awesome One!
I’m just so grateful to Him for everything He has done!

Copyrighted 2008 By: Elizabeth Shull

My Truest Love ~ Jesus

My Truest Love ~ Jesus

You are always there
To hear my every care,
And all my burdens to bear.

Though others may fail,
I know you will always prevail;
Even when the Devil’s on my tail.

You are my constant daily guide,
And You’re always by my side,
I know You will provide!

No matter what I do,
You will walk with me through and through,
For You are always faithful and true.

When I pray,
You always show me Your way.
What more can I say?

Copyrighted 2007 By: Elizabeth Anne Shull